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Need a Change of Scenery, At Least! [Apr. 5th, 2013|07:44 pm]
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I have a love/hate relationship with the South.  I love the southern hospitality.  I love the food, and lay of the land, the Southern architecture (at least in areas like Charleston, downtown Augusta, and the pictures I've seen of Savannah), sweet tea, the ready smiles and greetings, the way people are so eager to help or just sit there and listen.  But I hate the ignorance of the people!  Though true of every place, I find that here in the South, it seems to me that people don't think so much as simply inherit a way of thinking from their forefathers.  They inherit an idea like they inherit a shirt.  Only, to go on with the analogy, it might not fit so well, or it's outdated, or full of holes it's so worn.  Ugh.  And the people are just too blind to see.

There are times I think it would be great to move but I hate the weather up North.  It's cold there, and along with it, many of its people.  Yet I can appreciate coldness of northerners by far more.  At least, when they're rude, they're rude to your face.  There is no guessing where you stand with them.  I don't need a polite front from the South only to be stabbed in the back oh so gently.  No, thank you.  I like my truth straight up and on the rocks.  Kill me quick so I can spend my valuable time elsewhere.

People of the South form clique groups and I am not a member, being neither from the south, nor from a southern family, nor white and way too liberal in my thinking.  (I am from California, which, to most southerners, synonymous with "hell"; yes, I do believe that to be correct: to say that I am from California, I might as well say that I am from hell.)  They can be polite to you, nodding in agreement to your point of view but the moment your back is turned, blah blah blah they cluck away like chickens, gossiping about you to their real friends.

Maybe that's people the world over.  I don't know.  Even in California, I recall it was cliquish by nature, only we lumped it in the "fashionable people" and the "unfashionable people".

I'm just tired of listening to the crack of the Almighty Bible Belt--that they worship their church and pastor more than they could ever worship God.  I'm tired of hellfire and brimstone, all the smoke in mirrors bullshit that gets in your eyes to where you cry because you can't see straight any longer.  I'm tired of their love of firearms above their love of life, the way they toot about their southern hospitality and that no one ever leaves their home hungry and they're always ready to help a neighbor out---yet get downright HOSTILE (southern hostility, anyone?) should you bring up the subject of welfare and taxes for the common good.  I'm tired of their ignorance, their judgment.

And then I'm glad I can just stay at home and not socialize too much.  Just watch a movie or read a book and block out the outside world for a while and just escape to a much better place, meeting people too good to be true and just waste time.  It dulls the senses of what is out there.  Me and the South...we just don't see eye to eye anymore, and I'm wondering if a change of pace is in order?  And if we can afford it?
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For those of you who don't already know... [Jun. 11th, 2007|05:56 am]
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...yes, I AM getting a divorce. 
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7 Deadly Sins [Mar. 4th, 2007|11:08 am]
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I actually found this on MySpace, but I liked it so much, I thought I'd post it everywhere.  :)


1. Who did you last get angry with?

Matt, for waking me up too early this morning.

2. What is your weapon of choice?

A few select words.  Maybe more than a few, depending on the situation.

3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?

If they deserved it, yes.

4. How about of the same sex?

Probably not.  I'm stronger than the average female, so it might not be an even match.  Sexist, but true.

5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?

Probably Matt.  You know, from sheer proximity, frequency and all that.

6. What is your pet peeve?

I have many, and I pet them often.  People who litter, talk in movie theatres, those who drive on the shoulder so they can cut in front of you when traffic is bad (wait your turn like everyone else, you bastard!), people who complain about their situation but never do anything to fix it, people who expect more out of you than give in return.

7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?

Are you kidding me?  I can hold a grudge like it's my true love.


1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't?

Ice and stretch.  When it gets 'bad enough', I do.

2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?

9 pm.  I was extremely sick with the flu.  I didn't so much wake up as 'come back from the dead'.

3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't?

No one comes to mind.  Might be why I haven't contacted them.  I'm awfully forgetful when it comes to shit like that.

4. What is the last lame excuse you made?

"I don't feel like it."  aka can't even be bothered to make an excuse.

5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through?

Nope.  But I always wondered why they tend to pick someone with an English accent?  Does the product suddenly become more stylish to own???  We Americans are dumb.

6. When was the last time you got in a good workout?

At the Transformus/Burners event.  Holy cow, I did a lot of dancing!

7. How many times did you snooze your alarm clock today?

Not at all.  Damn thing wasn't set.  It's Sunday! Even God got to sleep in, thought I'd follow His good example.


1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?

::chants::: Chai chai chai chai!  Motherfucking whee!

2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat??

Um, seafood.

3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one night?

DragonCon (it inspires drinking, I see) Had maybe 8 Jagers with cokes all night.  Of course, all night meant dawn, so I'm not sure how impressive that actually is.  :)

4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?


5. Do you have an issue with your weight?

Only 20 pounds of it.  I blame it on my hair and breasts, though.  That's my story and I'm sticking to it!  LOL

6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?

SPICY!  Hotter the better!  If you have to call 911, it's perfect.

7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet and thought "lunch"?

What kind of sick, demented person thinks of a question like that?  You might as well as if I look at other people and think "lunch". 

1. How many people have you seen naked: in real life....?

Enough to make me smile.  Ah, memories....

2. How many people have seen YOU naked?

Enough to make me smile wider.  (When I'm 70 years old, I plan on streaking, upping that number.  LOL!  Everyone's gotta have a dream, right?)

3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at someone’s chest/crotch?

Yes, of course! 

4. Have you "done it"?

No, I'm married, I've seen ppl naked, they've seen me naked, but somehow, I remained a virgin.  YES, YOU MORON, WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK?!

5. What is your favorite body part on a person??

The psoas.  I love working the psoas.  "Who's your daddy, now?"  Just kidding.  Eyes and lips.  I'm a sucker for beautiful eyes and kissable lips.

6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?

Nope.  Never been to Vegas, sorry.

7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?

Never HAD to, as I practice safe sex, but got tested because of my own paranoia (which is vast and rather unreasonable at times).


1. How many credit cards do you own?

None.  They are the work of the devil.

2. What's your guilty pleasure store?

BARNES AND NOBLE!  LOL!  I'd get a job there, but they'd have to let me work for store credit!

3. If you had $10 million, what would you do with it?

Buy a 1920's-ish hotel and move all my friends into it.  It'll be a blast!  We could meet in the dining hall, but if we need our own privacy, we have our own rooms to hide in. 

Oh, and I'd want to travel, too.  :)

4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?

Rich.  With enough money, I can buy fame.  And if you're just rich enough, you can be famous for BEING rich.

5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?

Certainly.  I can always have fun on my time off.

6. Have you ever stolen anything?

Yes.  I stole a quarter when I was 7 years old.  I wanted it, so I took it.  When my brother found out, he kept telling me "thou shalt not steal."  I couldn't figure out who "thou" was, though.  LOL!

7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?

Not enough.


1. What's one thing you have done that you're most proud of?

My poetry. 

2. What’s one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?

Being alive.

3. What things would you like to accomplish in your life?

Learn how to play the violin, go on an Alaskan cruise and make a toast to the Aurora Borealis, tour Newstead Abbey, visit Stonehenge, go on a safari photo shoot in Africa, dance with the natives in Hawaii, learn how to make my own pottery,  streak naked on my 70th birthday. 

4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?

Yep.  But at the same time, I'm delighted to have come in at all.  But second place will do something for you that first place won't: it'll make you try harder.  That, in itself, is a reward.  First place makes you all glowy, but lazy, too.

5. Have you ever entered a contest knowing you would win?

No.  My vanity isn't THAT big!  Yikes.  If ever it does, slap me.

6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?

Yes.  Cheated in math all the time.  I just didn't want to fail.  (Dyslexia sucks.)

7. What did you do today that you're proud of?

Change my attitude.  I feel empowered to do what I feel is right to make myself happy.  Knowing that no one else can or should make me happy, is a great and liberating gift. 


1. What item does your friend have that you want?

A CAR!  LOL!  I'm working on it, fast as I can.

2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?

Donald Trump, so I can fuck up his mansion while he beautifies my home.  No, I'm not bitter.  Who, me? 

3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?

MYSELF!  I try not to "compare my insides with someone else's outsides".  They might look like they've got it all, but who knows what shit they really have to deal with?  Nope. Better the problems I know, than the problems I don't.

4. Have you ever been cheated on?

Of course.

5. Have you ever wished you had a different physical feature?

When I was a child, I wanted to be blonde, but only because most Disney princesses were.  Now, I'm glad I'm not.  You don't hear a lot of brunette jokes.  When you do, they're not nearly as funny as the blonde jokes.

6. What trait in others do you wish you had for yourself?

Peace of mind.  I only peaceful when I do massage.

7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey?

No, or else I WOULD have.  I'm not a 'wishing and waiting' kind of girl.

Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?

Oh, God, I've gotta choose JUST ONE?  They're like potato chips.  You can't have just one....(does that mean Gluttony wins by default?) Well, alright then.  If I must, I must. For the time being, my favorite is Wrath.  It's just so darn cleansing.
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MySpace sux so I'm posting in here [Feb. 25th, 2007|09:04 pm]
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[mood |ecstaticecstatic]

My weekend was incredible!  I got to see some friends I haven't seen in a long, long while.  Erin for one, Twilight for another. 

I went to this Burning Man/Burner's Event and it was intense.  The whole thing was held at a private clubhouse on a lake.   Drum cirlces, and lots of dancing with fire.  Hula hoops of fire, whips of fire, cups of fire, the list goes on and on.  And I got to dance on the sand next to one of the pits of fire, dressed all in red, with a red feathered mask, feeling every bit the phoenix, breathing in ash and exhaling fire, belly dancing the night away.  I even got beads for my dancing!  (It being a Mardi Gras themed event.)

I can't tell you how long its been since I've gathered so much attention from people.  Nice to get checked out at 33.  I have to say I appreciate it more now than I could have at 26.  Hell yeah!  I've still got it.  Hot damn!  Best compliment of the evening?  Some older gentleman told me that I was "wonderful to drum to".  And a compliment that tickled me?  Passed by a couple of guys and one of them said crudely, "Now that's what I'm talking about."  LOL!  Made me blush and feel 10 years younger. Even better was feeling loved by my friends, some of which I haven't seen in half a year or more.  In Erin's case, I haven't seen her in 8 years.

Talking to Twilight, the Burners' Philosophy is rather interesting.  It is about complete self reliance, to the point that anything extra is just icing on the cake.  It is nice to dream, of course, but they are more about making dreams a reality, self fulfillment.  I can definately see myself wanting to tap into that and making that part of me.  So much in my life was spent relying on others--my friends, my other half, my co-workers, my whomever.  This philosophy is more about me and what I can give myself, without needing to look elsewhere.  And I realize the beauty of that sort of strength, the necessity of taking care of myself.  Powerful.

What I really love about drum circles (besides the dancing, of course)? The people.  You can talk to anyone, and it's like talking to a relative you haven't seen in years.  They're open and friendly and full of wonderful energy.  You can just talk.  They're no chance of them being rude to you, or even look at you funny. When you part, you have a feeling that you're both richer for the experience, and that if you meet again, wonderful, but if not, that's fine, too. 

We went through their maze, swung on swings under the night sky.  Erin and a couple of other people sat on the roof of a parked school bus.   I even ran into my old friend, Paul Mercer, who used to play in the band the Changelings (if you remember them), but now takes his violin up to his new band, whose name escapes me.  After their set, how awesome it was that their trumpet player played an almost Arabic tune to the drum circle, and Paul added his violin to the mix.  Wild.  Beautiful.  Incredible.

Ok, I'm drunk while I write this, so pardon me if I've been rambling on, or if my sentences are less than what they should be, or could be if I were sober.  But like I said, it's been a fascinating weekend.  Liberating, even.  I think it's been a long while since I've been able to breathe like this, and that's funny all on its own since I spent the better part of last night breathing in fire and ash.

Oh, how I wish I could do this every night!!
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the #1 Most Popular Book of All Time [Dec. 10th, 2006|02:31 pm]
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This came from SoYouWanna.com:

4. The most popular book of all time

1. The Bible

Author: God
Copies sold: 6,000,000,000

OK, maybe not 6 billion, but a WHOLE lot. The Bible was clearly a page-turner from the start, and it benefited from good word of mouth publicity, flying off the shelves. The basic plot is that there's this omnipotent deity who creates a planet and some beings to inhabit it. These beings screw everything up, He washes them out with a flood, and then they come back and screw everything up again. As a character, He's a little bit inconsistent; He's a vengeful Guy one minute, then He's answering prayers the next. But you have to give it a chance.

The first chapter is called "Genesis," named after the rock group with the same name (the author was a huge Phil Collins fan). Then comes "Exodus," and in no time we have plagues, sacrifices, miracles, and holy wars all over the place. There's so much blood, gore, and sex, that we're surprised that the thing hasn't been banned by one of those moralistic groups that are always trying to ban something.

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Jackson Says He Won't Be Making 'The Hobbit' [Nov. 21st, 2006|03:56 pm]
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Here's the yahoo article I read: Jackson Says He Won't Be Making 'The Hobbit'.  Here is my response.
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Snagged from Laz [Nov. 7th, 2006|10:34 am]
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The Maid of Honor
Deliberate Gentle Love Master (DGLMf)

Appreciated for your kindness and envied for all your experience, you are The Maid of Honor.

Charismatic, affectionate, and terrific in relationships, you are what many guys would call a "perfect catch"--and you probably have many admirers, each wishing to capture your long-term love. You're careful, extra careful, because the last thing you want is to hurt anyone. Especially some poor boy whose only crime was liking you.

Your exact opposite:

Random Brutal Sex Dreamer
We've deduced you're fully capable of a dirty fling, but you do feel that post-coital attachment after hooking up. So, conscientious person that you are, you do your best to reserve physical affection for those you respect...so you can respect yourself.

Your biggest negative is the byproduct of your careful nature: indecision. You're just as slow rejecting someone as you are accepting them.

ALWAYS AVOID: The False Messiah, The 5-Night Stand, The Vapor Trail, The Bachelor

CONSIDER: The Gentleman, someone just like you.

Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.
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Yahoo Group [Nov. 6th, 2006|02:09 pm]
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I am starting a Poetry Workshop Yahoo Group. All interested, please contact me.
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Firefly/Serenity Quiz! [Oct. 7th, 2005|02:21 pm]
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ROFLMAO! I am Zoe!!!

You scored as First Mate Zoe. Zoe Warren: former Independent and a real "xiong ci sha shou".
You are torn between two men in your life.


First Mate Zoe


Simon, the Doctor


Kaylee, the Mechanic


Captain Malcolm Reynolds


Inara, the "Companion"




Shepherd Book


Wash, the Pilot


Jayne Cobb, resident bad-ass


created with QuizFarm.com
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Irony [Jan. 17th, 2005|03:51 pm]
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Irony: someone who preaches how we should accept each other's differences, biting my head off...for thinking differently.
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